A busy holiday?!

Christmas break just kicked off yesterday. My mates went back to their homes, most of them live in midlands. Unfortunately, i might be stuck in Wales for the whole christmas holiday! 3 academic coursework need to be done.

1. I'm doing a research that has something related to petroleum, oil & gas. I'll study the behaviour and formation of mantle plumes (some sort of magma coming out from the earth's mantle) and it's relation with mass extinction; hence the formation of black shales! Challenging, yet interesting! Hopefully it's an eye opener for my sponsor! huhu...Cari minyak, cari minyak! (My beloved personal tutor for this course is Dr Andrew Kerr, takde link pulak ke website dia...ish...nanti cari)

2. Creating an A3-size poster on Gower. My school has loads of graphics softwares which are specialised for geological & geographical use. Google Earth is only a laughing stock for us! I have a big ambition with this one. Guess what, with these softwares, I'm able to reconstruct the geographical image of any place, anywhere, anytime (given that i have plenty data for the particular area). Just imagine.......The Battle of Badr, Uhud....Ottoman Empire......whoa....hopefully this dream will come true one day!

3. An essay. huhu.....enough said.

Geology: Physically demanding, intellectually challenging, spiritually fulfilling! All in all, i'll be busy! Main Building will be my 2nd home from now...huhu.

There are other stuff which needs my attention. Apa-apa pun..... hati pun perlu 'dinaik taraf' dengan ilmu, as well as 'dicuci'.
Isnin - Sheikh Hisham's Halaqa: Life of the Prophet, Al-Manar Islamic Centre
Selasa - Sheikh Abdalla Yaasin's Halaqa: Tafseer & Spirituality, Darul Isra' Islamic Centre
Rabu - ......erm.....kena cari!
Khamis - Sheikh Ya'qoob's Halaqa: Tajweed & Quran Recitation, Darul Isra' Islamic Centre
Jumaat - Malaysian Brothers Halaqa.....kalau banyak tak ada.... some halaqa in Darul Isra'
Sabtu - Football 5-on-5 Islamic Society Brothers weekly social.
Ahad - .....tak sure....kena cari gak!

Balance. Improvement. Consistent. itu yg diharapkan, inshaAllah.
allahu'alam.

Guru

Cikgu Sebelum Tadika!!
-Mrs Chin Chin (my 1st teacher, taught me Maths & English at the age of 5. i love you teacher, you're the best!)
*still keeping in touch sehingga kini, sebab rumah dekat dgn rumah nenek (TokJah)!!

Cikgu Tadika
-Mrs Samuel (Child Enrichment Centre, Subang Jaya, Selangor)

Guru2 Sekolah Rendah SS19 Subang Jaya, Selangor
-banyak dah lupa

Guru2 Sekolah Rantau Petronas, Kertih, Terengganu
-pun banyak dah lupa
*tau tau ada a few from SRP yg fly ke UK, most of them from KYUEM. Bila ditegur baru perasan...huhu!

Guru2 Sekolah Kebangsaan SS17 Subang Jaya, Selangor
-Pn Shamsiah -cikgu BM
-Ustazah Norhizam -cikgu PI
-En Shukri -cikgu PJ + KH
-Pn Koh -cikgu Maths
-Pn Noraini - cikgu KT
-yg lain banyak dah lupa, tapi muka ingat

Guru2 Sek Rendah Agama Masjid Darul Ehsan, Subang Jaya
-Ust Hashim (Pengetua)
-Ust Haliman Shah -Tauhid
-Ust Isa - Tajwid & Khat
-dan banyak lagi!!
*banyak kwn2 dari sekolah ni: Izad(US), NikAmalina(Ire), Izza(UK), Black(UK), Che'pah(Aus), Asma'(Aus), Fazrin (Ire) & yg lain2.

Guru2 Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman, Ipoh
Puan Hajjah Umaimah (mak angkat!! penyimpan rahsia terbesar buatku) - BM
Mr Mano - Bio (sorry sir, i flunked my 1st yr medic)
Mr Ng - English teacher & swimming coach (Sir, you're number1!)
Mr King - Chemistry (i'll remember you til i die, thanks Sir!!)
-dan banyak lagi!!!

Guru2 KMB
-Pn Najihah - Malay A1
-Pn Norhasnah - Business & Management
-Pn ....... - Maths (cikgu, sorry tetiba terlupa nama! banyak pengalaman. mohon maaf pasal pernah cetuskan konflik.)
-Mr Guna - Bio (your notes were so powerful!)
-Pn Norlila - Chemistry (i love the way you integrate Chem & Islam & God)
-Ust Yazid - Agama (Ust, sorry tak abes surah hafalan!)

Guru2 tak formal
-Ust Hasrizal - my on-going teacher!
-Ustaz Alias Omar - guru ttg haraki, usul 20 & lain2 especially waktu involved dalam program JIM & KARISMA time kat KMB. JZKK!!
-Akhi Razi - sedar2 kita sama sekolah, sama kolej, sama Uni....cuma di masa yg berbeza!
-Sheikh Sameh - Arabic Language (Darul Isra' Legend Number 1!!)
-Sheikh Abu Baraa' - Usul Fiqh (Darul Isra' Big Imam)
-Sheikh Abdalla Yaasin - Tafseer (spiritual teacher)
-Ust Nazri Abdul Razak - Tafseer

Kalau ikutkan, the list goes on and on.
Aku actuallyat the moment kat Main Building, finishing some work, and the clock now is 9.52pm. Tetiba teringat kat cikgu2 zaman2 dulu. Banyak hal yg aku buat dengan cikgu. Dari mogok taknak jadi Head Prefect sekolah rendah sampailah ke bengang emo 2 minggu dgn Mr King (STAR) & cikgu Maths (KMB). Tapi konflik tu semua dah selesai.

Kantoi bagi budak Form2 makan (baca: telan, bukak isap) rokok, Pak Pin (Pengetua STAR) tau. Nasib baik dapat backup. Kalau tak....huhu. Sape soh kantoi isap rokok depan aku. Somehow mujur cikgu2 kat STAR ada on my side. Lesen besar nak handle budak2 Form2 yg 'mereng' sikit. Tapi ni suma cite lama.

There are too many experience to be told in one shot. InshaAllah ada masa nanti akan aku taip satu persatu. Semua ni sebab mengenangkan jasa guru2, hati tersentuh bila terdengar lagu "Terima Kasih Guru" nyanyian MIRWANA. Boleh titis air mata.

Kawan2,
Sepandai mana kita pun, setua mana kita, hiduplah dengan berguru. Banyak sebabnya.
Antaranya, merekalah sumber kekuatan dikala kita dibawah!!
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Terima Kasih Guru
Album : Hikmah Kembara
Munsyid : Mirwana
http://liriknasyid.com

Masih jelas diminda
bisikan suaramu..memanggil
Di situ langkahku bermula
mengejari cita..kau disisi

Lantas ku utuskan
lagu untuk menyatakan
(chorus, part ni yg rasa nak nangis, honestly my friends...)
terima kasih guru
kerna hulur tanganmuku menghargai setulus jiwaku
bicaramu gurukan ku ingat selalu
menjadi azimat kugenggam hingga ke akhirnya

Guru..ibarat pelita
sentiasa menyinar
kamar hidupku..

Guru..kau pewaris ilmu
mendidik diriku
hinggaku berjaya

(chorus sekali lagi!)

Andai diberi peluang
inginku terbang tinggi di awangan
kanku petik bintang-bintangku jadikan hadiah untukmu
moga tuhan merahmatimu
Terima Kasih... (chorus)
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moga lagu ni menjadi renungan utk kita bersama disamping sebagai halwa telinga.
allahu'alam.

Anak

Guru yg kucintai telah peroleh 3 org anak. Subhanallah. Website nya pula lately ni banyak dipaparkan tentang pengalamannya menjadi seorang bapa kepada 2 anak lelaki dan seorang anak perempuan. Gaya penulisannya semakin lembut. Aku dapat rasakan. Tenang. Anda?

Entah. Lately ni selalu terbaca, terdengar, terborak etc di mana2 tentang mencari jodoh, berkahwin, skill menjadi ibubapa, perceraian....segalanya berkenaan dengan isu rumahtangga. Kat masjid pulak, Uncle Shiraz buat lawak (dan aku alter sikit2 ikut sedap)...

When a Malaysian sees a beautiful woman, he says "Astaghfirullah"
When a Pakistani sees a beautiful woman, he says "Masha Allah"
When an Arab sees a beautiful woman, he says "INSHA ALLAH!"

2 Walimah di Cardiff. Kaedah walimah di UK pun telah diterangkan.

Posgrads di sini pun baru dpt cahaya mata, 4 orang. Akan dibuat aqiqah dan barangkali meminta kami UG utk marhaban.

Aku suka. Aku rasa tenang.

Sebarang petanda? fikir fikir...... la la la

Me

Friends,
Do sit back, relax, and think...

What does it mean by being a/an
1. Muslim
2. Non-muslims
2. Malay
3. Chinese
4. Indian
5. Lain2
6. Malaysian
7. Asian

Identity crisis? A question that needs an answer. Think.

Why bother thinking about it?! Sooner or later, my friends, you'll be living with people of different backgrounds. Befriend them, sharing common moral values, or make war.

Some, even those around us, do have this identity crisis. Look around. Observe. Think. Why?
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Just finished an exam this afternoon. EA1010 Sedimentary System. Alhamdulillah.

Blogging

I have spent about 40 minutes of my day surfing from one blog to another, most of them were my friends', here in the UK, somewhere around the world, as well as back home in Malaysia. Quite fascinated!

My dear friends,
Now is the era of blogging. Express your feelings, share your ideas, speak your mind! Then & only then people could know whether they have the same shared interest as yours.

Interestingly, controversial blogs are also on fire. Astora Jabat, Yasmin Ahmad & some other blogs. There are also other interesting blogs such as Anwar Ibrahim's, Faisal Tehrani, Saiful Islam, whatever that suits your interests. This is true freedom of speech & freedom of expression. But friends, i would strongly encourage you to equip yourself with knowledge & faith before going into a deep discussion with any of these conroversial issues. Some might be emotionally moving, intellectually challenging, politically attracting! Be careful, always be careful.

Regards,
-Your friend in the blogging world-

Walimah in the UK?!!

I was invited to attend a Walimah in Darul Isra' mosque yesterday. There was also one today.

Loads of people attended yesterday's event, but fewer people were in the mosque today. My 'tok sheikh' invited me to sing a nasheed together with him, and i agreed. He suggested "Tolaa'al badru 'alaina....", i thought i have no problem singing that song, hence i agreed. In the middle of the song, i somehow forgot the lyrics, so "hentam bedal sajelaaa!!"

Huhu~ i forgot that the people whom are listening to our nasheed are ARABS!

How embarrasing.....ahhh...selamba! huhu....i enjoyed it, and had a good laugh with my sheikh when we had dinner together.

My friends,
This is what i was told on how the muslims here get married (the Arab way)
-3 stages; 1)Nikaah 2)Walimah 3)Al-'Urus (note that they have Walimah & Urus separately, unlike us and our culture)
-Groom pays for the dowry, nikaah & walimah
-Bride pays for Al-'Urus
-Nikaah: signing the marriage agreement. The couple is officially wed, and they are allowed to go out together during the day, but the husband must send the wife back to her family before nightfall
-Walimah: announcing the local community that the couple is getting married. Normally held on the day of the nikaah
-Al-'Urus: a few months after the Nikaah. This is the time where the husband officially take the wife to his own house and they can then live together.
-I asked my sheikh, and he said that the average dowry for an Arab girl, muslimaat, now is about £3000 (Tiga ribu pounds sahaja!), and that excludes the walimah & al-'urus

So guys, up for the challenge?

p/s: at least the Imaam there prayed for those who are still single to get married soon! huhu.... (Ameen?!)

Home

I woke up late today, but still managed to pray Fajr before the time ended. Stomach filled with Pakistani-cooked rice & salad & lamb, as there was a 'walimah' going on last night in Darul Isra' Islamic Centre. 3 days in a row!! Yesterday, today & tomorrow! Mine?! haha, a matter to be discussed later.

Called dad, he didnt answer the phone. Called home, no reply. Called Abang, he picked up his phone and we chat for about half an hour. They were at the PC Fair in KL. Abang said that he'll be at home for holiday until the 5th of January. He's finished his assignment with Prof Shad (UiTM Shah Alam), and now he's geared to pursue a family-based project; reconstructing the family tree. One of my cousins just graduated from nursing school in UM, and she's now a practising nurse in UM's paediatrics ward. Sorry Shasha, no more family hospital! Another cousin planned in pursuing his studies (privatey financed) to Japan, and he's planning to have a chat with my sister, Na, since she's been to Japan once, for a month, under the flag of AFS (a.k.a Antarabudaya Malaysia ABM, in which i went to the same programme for a month in 2001).

Abang asked if i would be coming back for holiday anytime soon, since the whole family is at home! Maybe not. Maybe sometime in June till September. Or.....might not be coming back home, might want to go for a work attachment somewhere here. Should I, or should I not??!

That's all for now. Missing my family very much. InshaAllah I'll call home anytime later.

Bersabar wahai kawan....

Entah kenapa sejak kebelakangan ini aku lebih gemar untuk menaip post dalam Bahasa Melayu (baca: MELAYU!) dan tidak Bahasa Inggeris, walhal assignment yang tersimpan rapi didalam beg sekolah kesemuanya memerlukan keringatku untuk menulis dalam Bahasa Inggeris. Ntah.....Biarkan biarkannn.....

Aku dulu buntu. Ingin mencari sesuatu yang boleh dijadikan kekuatan untuk berjuang. Identiti untuk diserlahkan.

Dari situlah aku jumpa kekuatan dan nama. Keluarga. "Kehebatan" sejarah & salasilah keluarga menjadi asbab untuk aku menumpang & menangguk kebanggaan hasil titik peluh orang lain. Aku yakin, ketika itu, yang aku berada di dalam kelompok yang betul. Kesempatan untuk menuntut di salah sebuah sekolah sekular yang ditubuhkan berteraskan semangat kebangsaan menjadi penyeri kepada pakej yang sedia ada.

Aku berhijrah ke Banting. Di situ aku dikenalkan dengan kelompok orang2 yang lebih cenderung kepada agama. Aku pelik. Ada juga kelompok sebegini. Aku diajak untuk bersama2 menimba ilmu, berbaik dengan guru2, memahami erti persahabatan sebenar dan menghayati sejarah perjuangan Nabi. Pendirianku tatkala itu goyah.

Aku fikir dan terus fikir (mungkin salah satu kelemahan, sebab terlalu banyak berfikir sampai orang lain kata aku tidak berbuat apa2 & membuang masa), aku pertimbangkan hak batil, baik buruk dan sebagainya. Aku membuat keputusan.

Inilah namanya perjuangan.

Tiadalah namanya perjuangan andai kemenangan itu mudah untuk diperoleh. Perjuangan yang sebenar apabila kita mempraktikkan teori yang dipelajari, dan dilancarkan secara terus ataupun tidak terus kepada sasaran. Dan perjuangan seringkali menjadi "along" yang mahukan secebis pengorbanan dari kita, sedikit demi sedikit. Adakalanya kita terkorban.

Nasihatku buat rakan2 yg disayangi sekalian,
Sedarlah bahawa perjuangan itu bukan mudah. Ianya tidaklah semudah perbincangan ilmiah semata2. Ianya juga tidak semudah mengharapkan kemenangan yang datang bergolek. Bersabarlah. Kita punya matlamat. Kita berusaha, untuk mencapai matlamat tersebut. Andai tidak tercapai, maka nantikanlah.....anak2 kita bakal menyambung perjuangan ini.

Dan suatu hari nanti kita akan mengecapi kemenangan!

Adab

Kehidupan sebagai seorang pelajar memerlukan kita untuk sentiasa berada dalam keadaan peka terhadap keadaan sekeliling. Penglibatan kita didalam aktiviti-aktiviti luaran, ya'ni selain akademik, mematangkan fikiran, menajamkan akal dan meluaskan pengalaman. Peluang untuk mencorakkan kehidupan kita sebagai pelajar di bumi Inggeris ini amat luas, bahkan sebahagian besar peluang-peluang in tidak dapat kita perolehi di Malaysia.

Malaysian Society
Islamic Society
Federation of Student Islamic Society
Badan2 politik yang digerakkan oleh pelajar2 universiti (Labour, LibDem etc)
UKEC
Kelab UMNO?!
dan lain2.

Fokus saya pada kali ini bukanlah untuk membincangkan tentang kelebihan persatuan-persatuan ini dengan lebih terperinci.

Ibnu Khaldun ada menyatakan didalam kitabnya Muqoddimah, bahawa "“Manusia dalam sifat semulajadinya perlu hidup bersosial (saling memerlukan antara satu sama lain)”.

Kita bergaul bersama rakan2. Kita berbincang. Kita berdebat. Bagus.

Tapi boleh jadi cacat kalau.....dalam perbincangan, ada yang mengeluarkan kata2 yang tidak sopan.

Fu*k
Bulls**t
dan lain2.

Wahai kawan2 yg sangat kusayangi sekalian,
Kita ni orang bertamaddun. Kita dimuliakan dengan Islam. Tambah lagi, kita ni orang Melayu. Kita orang dari rantau Timur.

Hidup kita, kat mana kita toleh pun, mesti beradab. Makan kena beradab. Minum kena beradab. Masuk tandas kena beradab. Bercakap kena beradab. Hatta nak buang ayaq pun kena beradab. Saya bukannya hendak berleter kepada rakan2, tetapi sekadar hendak mengingatkan diri sendiri serta anda semua.

Bila orang tengah bercakap, adabnya kita jangan mencelah. Mintak izin kalau hendak mencelah

Bila kita berdebat, adabnya kita berbudi bahasa. Yang baik itu budi, yang indah itu bahasa. Tak perlu pun kepada mencarut2. Hang carut2, hang carut budi hang gak, kotoq.

Bila kita tidak setuju dengan pendapat orang lain, adabnya kita hormat & undur diri dengan baik. Jangan pula terbawa2 untuk berdendam dengan orang tersebut. Nabi pun menegur orang Badwi yang kencing kat masjid pasal perbuatan dia, bukannya pakat ngan para sahabat supaya boikot orang Badwi tersebut.

Lepas tu, kawan2 sekalian, kita pun kena juga ingat.....

Janganlah dok gebang2 "DISKRIMINASI! DISKRIMINASI!" kalau kita sendiri tak paham apa bendanya yang didiskriminasikan

Janganlah dok emo sangat "APEHAL LAK KO NYEBOK??!! KO TAKDE HAK NAK BAGI KEPUTUSAN". Yes, memang orang yang tidak terlibat secara langsung tiada hak untuk memberi keputusan, tapi cara kita menjawab balik tu perlu ada adabnya juga.

Anak degil, bapak sebat.
Murid degil, cikgu tegur.
Pekerja degil, bos bising.
Membe degil, membe baik sound.
Kalau membe degil & tanak dengar............?!!!!!

Ingat ye kawan2, orang sound bukan sebab suka2, bukan sebab nak glamour, bukan sebab nakkan nama, bukan juga sebab nakkan pengaruh.....tapi sebab takut kalau2 nanti time kite mampuih nanti.......hok yang cipte kite tu sound!!

Kembalilah kita kepada budaya hidup yang beradab.
Takut Allah, jom ikut Nabi!

wallahu'alam.

Jiwa......Syukur.....

Mama bersama Arif (4yrs old, bongsu dari 7), di rumah, pagi sebelum aku bertolak ke Cardiff

Aku bukanlah seorang yg berasal dari bandar. Aku sudah biasa dengan susu Fernleaf dari kecil, didodoikan dengan lagu "DO-a deer, a female deer", diberikan buku2 Walt Disney untuk dibaca, ke sekolah pun, naik bas yang elok, kasut 2 pasang setahun, RM 2 untuk sekolah rendah, RM 1 untuk sekolah agama. Sekali sekala, ada juga ke kelas fardhu ain. Ayah sering mengajak ke surau untuk solat, tapi aku berlari2 di luar. Balik rumah, kena sebat. Berbirat. Dengan ibu, aku selalu ada masalah waktu aku kecil. Cemburu. Selalu adik2 yg kecil sahaja diberi layanan yang lebih. Mulut aku pun menjadi celupar. Menjawab. Kena cili.

Ujian peperiksaan sekolah rendah, aku selalu cemerlang. UPSR pula, dapat 5A. Masuk asrama.

STAR 9802. Memori. Kawan & Lawan. Suka & celaka.

Tingkatan satu macam hamba
Tingkatan dua macam hamba tahap 2
Tingkatan tiga pun macam hamba
Tingkatan empat, aku bebas
Tingkatan lima, aku bebas juga, walaupun bukannya raja.

Kenapa hamba? Semuanya kerana aku tidak mahu menuruti permintaan pelajar2 senior yang celaka. Aku peduli apa, yang penting aku dijalan yang benar. Kena kutuk, maki hamun, tikam belakang, tampar, sepak terajang.

Dapat keputusan SPM. Syukur, Allah Maha Penyayang. Masuk asrama lagi.

Kelas M03E, Kolej Mara Banting 03-05

Bebas! selesai sudah 5 tahun dimaki dihamun. Lali. Ketika itu aku mula belajar berinteraksi dengan manusia yang pelbagai. Perempuan terutamanya. 5 tahun belajar di persekitaran all-boys. Kini cabarannya lain pula. Pendedahan terhadap agama. Aku dibesarkan di sekolah sekular. Bahasa arab pula selalu gagal sewaktu di sekolah rendah. Sekolah menengah pula, mengambil bahasa jepun sehingga 'ter'pergi ke Jepun selama sebulan. Nak dibanding dengan yang lain? Siapa? Matshah? Napie Zin? Ahmad? Aku haram jauh kebelakang. Kini cabarannya bersifat dalaman. Sekali sekala aku menangis. Sendirian. Cuba mencari hala tuju. Aku berasa tenang. Tapi masih mencari.

Simposium Nuqaba', Kolej Mara Banting

Keputusan yang kurang baik, tapi dapat juga ke UK (??!). Alhamdulillah. Seandainya Allah hendak memberi, tiada siapa yang boleh menghalang.

Tiba di UK.

Cabarannya kini, luaran dan dalaman. Kuat.

Luaran, aku dihentam, dimaki, diperli, secara terbuka, sinis ataupun belakang-belakang.
Dalaman, berusaha untuk menjadi yang terbaik, tetapi seringkali ketinggalan.
Banyak lagi cabaran-cabaran yang lain.

Raya, 1 Syawal 1427H, Cardiff City Hall

Mujur........
Mak ayah yg selalu memberi sokongan dan doa (walaupun lebih 8 tahun aku hidup berasrama),
Kawan2 di STAR yg sentiasa bersamaku,
Sahabat2 di KMB yg tidak segan silu kucintai kerana sucinya hati mereka terhadap agama Allah,
Adik-beradikku di Cardiff yang sentiasa disamping ketika aku memerlukan nasihatmu...

-Aku yg sentiasa hidup nomad-

Luahan dicoret setelah sekian lama terpendam. Bukannya aku bersifat pendendam.

Notts Games 2006

Saturday, 4th November 2006

Nottingham Malaysian Games is undoubtedly the biggest Malaysian sporting games in the UK, in which it managed to draw thousands of people from all over the UK & Ireland. Considering this as an opportunity to meet my distant friends, I brave myself going there, taking the ticket as a player of our very own football team.

Cardiff A 1-1 Sheffield A
Cardiff A 1-0 Southampton B
Cardiff A 3-1 LSE
Cardiff A 1-1 Nottingham B

Cardiff A
Standing: Naseer, Din, Azad, Yan, Fahmi
Squatting: Azri, Pijan, Abg Ayie

Berehat jap lepas game....muke ceria sebab menang....hehe.... rambut yg panjang mengganggu vision pulak, headband tertinggal...so pakai jelah snowcap CHELSEA... teeheee...

Yan merembat!!! Gooooollll!!! Goalkeeper khusyuk menghayati sepakan Yan...huhu

Final
Birmingham 1-0 Liverpool

I think we did great this year as compared to last year.....unfortunately, we didnt qualify for the 2nd round as we finished 2nd in the group, with only 2 goal difference with Sheffield A (top the table, same points).

Oh well, there goes my football career. Should I hang my boots after this?
I guess I just have to wait until the next goalkeeper arrive in Cardiff to replace me.... *wink*

Luah...

Aku sendiri tidak mengetahui mengapa sebenarnya aku sering meluangkan masa untuk menukilkan post di blog ini dengan begitu kerap sejak kebelakangan ini. Mungkin sebab aku runsing, maka aku cari ketenangan. Mungkin sebab aku buntu, lantas menaip untuk meligatkan otak agar kembali berfikir. Mungkin juga sebab pasrah dengan beberapa perkara, maka disinilah tempat kuluahkan perasaan.

Banyak orang, dari pelbagai latarbelakang singgah ke blog ini untuk membaca khabar baru tentang diri aku. Terima kasih aku ucapkan

Sesetengah manusia daripada mereka mungkin mencari-cari kesalahan agar ianya menjadi bahan untuk berdebat denganku

Bagi pengunjung harian yang sentiasa ringan tangan untuk bertanya khabar di CBOX di sisi blog, terima kasih juga aku ucapkan (tribute kepada encik ihsan_huhu). Andalah pemain utama yang menyinarkan blog ini.

Tiba-tiba aku menaip dengan bahasa Melayu. Pertama kali. Post penuh.

Macam-macam benda yang aku fikirkan. Kadang-kadang aku tenang, kadang-kadang aku kusut....
-dengan perangai manusia yang gila glamour, gila kuasa, gila duit.....mereka disekelilingku.
-dengan perangai manusia yang dah tidak endahkan nilai-nilai murni dalam al-Quran dan sunnah Nabi
-dengan perangai manusia yang semakin bodoh sosial.

Entah.

Mujur ada kawan-kawan, sahabat yang betul-betul aku hargai kasih sayang mereka.

Wahai pembaca yang berfikir,
Sama-samalah kita perkuatkan diri kita, dalaman dan luaran. Cabaran menggunung menanti kita, hari demi hari.

Wahai pembaca yang bodoh,
Celikkanlah diri. Janganlah sampai aku meluat tengok engkau yang kadangkala bersikap sombong serta bodoh, kedua-duanya pada masa yang sama.

Aku mencari ketenangan.
Cinta hanya untuk Tuhan.

Our world; what will/can we do?!

*snip*
-Saddam Hussein was sentenced to death
-TDM was invited by DSAI to join the opposition forces after being criticised by the party which is leading the government
-Zakaria's MPK councillor issue; when will this guy shut up?
-Australian muslims were 'oppressed' by the media
-some Muslim country 'successfully revenged' the -prophet's-caricature issue by organising a jew-holocaust-caricature competition
*snap*


My humble observation on the Malaysians here in the UK,
-some Muslims are concerned with their faith & religion, hence organise activities which could nourish their belief in God and reminding themselves to be better Muslims.
-some Muslims do not aware that they are Muslims (which literally mean that they should 'do Islam'; Mu-Islam)
-some Muslims were not so aware on these things, hence go with the flow.
-some non-Muslims demand to have acivities like clubbing, pub-crawl etc.
-some non-Muslims who are not inclined to these activities, have their own group, doing things, humbly, together.

I would not want to touch on the issue of 'race' as it can be a bit lenghty. God-willing, i'll express my view about it someday later.

I believe, that everyone would want to find peace. Peace might be thought to have come to their heart when people have acquired
-money
-fame
-sexual desires
-power
-material gain
-lotsa food (buurrpp!!)
-etc.
I might be wrong, but i feel that humans are equipped with 3 unique departments in themselves, namely the MIND, SOUL, DESIRE. The mind should be polished, soul to be nourished, and desires to be trained.

Muslims here have the conflict to cater the needs for the non-Muslims. They have no restriction on drinking, having close intimacy etc. Hence, the Muslims got confused.

I strongly feel that this is not only the issue of religion, but also an issue of general ethical & moral behaviour. People could argue "macam mana nak ukur mesra yg tak dibenarkan?", "apa maksud kau tentang pergaulan bebas", "c'mon la, open la sikit" etc. however, does everything needs to be quantifiable? I would say no.
My rate of sadness is 50 teardrops per minute
My happiness at this hour is 23 Joule
My relationship with her is great, it's 60 Ampere now.
You see, sometimes people could give what i say 'blind logic' when it comes to following the ethical, moral * religous codes & behaviour. However, they are 'logically blind' when it comes to fulfilling their desires. Excessive alcohol can be detrimental to one's body. Sexual intercouse prior to marriage could result in conflicts, not only to both couples, but to their families as well. The debate can go on and on until forever.

Hence, i'd like to remind myself and the readers here....
Peganglah agama, akhlak yg mulia, adab yg sopan, budi yg baik, tutur yang sejahtera dengan baik, sebagai pegangan kita dalam mendapatkan suasana yg lebih harmoni di dalam masyarakat.

In a bit rush, this message might have loads of mistakes. will edit it soon.

love for god

Searching for.....

A time for myself.

Today....
Not going to class
Not dealing with societies' work
No higher-level, full-tense discussion
No negotiations
No appointments

Sitting comfortly in my room, doing the things I like....
Reading books
Self-introspection
Self-talk
Finding the true meaning of a slave, a worshipper

I always like to look at babies, they wash my worries away. Pure, sinless, calm.....

Plan....

Twice a day......
Before fajr prayer
Between maghrib & isya' prayers

A day a week.....
One of the weekends.

"Verily, by the remembrance of Allah does one heart find peace..."

God knows best

Ampunkan anakanda wahai bonda & ayahanda

Had a hectic day yesterday, with the Cardiff Regional Open Forum and something else. Will also be busy the whole day today.

Just checked my email, and got this picture from my dad.

Behind: Datin Hamidah (relative, our guest that day), Abang (1/7, Law, UiTM Shah Alam), DPP Shahrul (Aunty Hamidah's husband).
Middle: Papa, Arif (6/7, standard 2), Ridhuan (7/7, 4 yrs old), Mama, Uncle Shahrul's mom
Front: Aishah (5/7, younger sis, form 1), Shahrina (3/7 younger sis, Law UiTM Kedah)

Missing in picture: myself (of course! 2/7), Luqman (4/7, younger bro, form 3, probably d cameraman)
Venue: Living room, my house, Nilai.

It's really good to see that the family is fine and well. Do forgive me for not being able to be with you for 2 consecutive Hari Raya's! I have chosen this path, this is my way, and inshaAllah, God-willing, I'll strive. I promise to be a good, soleh, understanding son towards both of you (Mama & Papa).

Selamat Hari Raya to my family back home! Mohon maaf salah & silap. Doakan semoga saya berjaya, dunia akhirat.

"Berjuang itu ertinya berkorban. Berkorban itu ertinya terkorban..."

p/s: sorry for those who did not understand the underlying meaning of the message given. hehe.

Read, in the name of ....

It is generally known, although there might be no evidence on this as far as i am concern, that Malaysians read less than the average British. Books here (UK) can be bought at a very cheap price, from 20p! In Malaysia, people tend to save money and spend it on something else, eg. collectible items. It is indeed not wrong to do so, however, I personally believe that one could gain a lot, in terms of knowledge, tranquility, fulifilment & self-satisfaction, from reading as compared to other leisure activities.

Internet has also serve as a good medium to transmit information from a party to another.

Facts of the world today are created by actions & opinions by the people of yesterday.
Some of their views & thoughts might be invaluable, some rubbish. Nevertheless, it's worth reading as I find it to be intellectually fulfilling.

I have added several links to some of the 'top guns' in Malaysia. Have a look, enjoy reading!

terdiam....

At the time this post is composed, i am in the computer room in the Main Building, Cardiff University. This is actually my second post for today, a couple of minutes after i published the 1st one.

The tab 'PUBLISH POST' was clicked, and then 'REPUBLISH ENTIRE BLOG', twice. Sign out. Went out from this site and checked out my financial status in HSBC.co.uk. I longed to read my teacher's (Ustaz Hasrizal) writing, hence typed his web address straight away.

www.saifulislam.com

direction --> TELADAN HIDUP

I read the article entitled 'Di Mana Damai Desa', read every single word....

terdiam.....sebak...sedih....

Aku harap korang faham.
wallahu'alam.

Calling all M'sian 2nd yr MEDICS '05-'10 !!

Salam.

Honestly mate, it's been a very very long time since i last sit down & have a good laugh with my friends in the Medics department....oh well, there is an exception (Rauna's my housemates!..huhu)

Rauna, Salad, Sakinah M, T Sakinah, Aimi, Fatin, Wei Kang, Zhuang Li, Alan TJQ, Mohana, Gayatri, Lavanya, Jassie, Shuli, Waiping (hopefully im not missing anybody here....)

That does not include the Isoc bros that i usually hangout with. Not to mention some of my ex-DR mates (most of them are locals) & my other friends as well.

Korang apa kaba sekarang? harap semua ok, God-willing.

If you guys so happen to read this post, do give a shout in the CBOX at the side ya. Kinda miss all of you. All the best in your 2nd year! Make sure you don't screw up anywhere from now 'til you graduate!

love for god

Tranquil....

Morning
-had a long, deep, quality sleep today. One that I never had in any weekdays.

Afternoon
-Went to Ayie's house, 'Hari Raya & Deepavali' celebration, organised by UMNO. Many thanks to you guys
-Rushed to Darul Isra'. Attended a 2-hour Arabic Language class, a bit late though

Late Afternoon
-Played futsal
1) 4pm-5pm = with the ISOC brothers
2) 5pm - 6pm = with the Malaysians
3) 7pm - 8pm = with the Malaysians

Evening
-Went to a friend's house. Had a deep discussion with a little bit of introspection

Outcome?
Alhamdulillah....All praise be to God, my perception towards certain issues was successfully cleared & corrected. More peaceful & tranquil inside. 2 hours of a heart-to-heart conversation.....worth every minute!

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin

STOP! Have a cup of coffee.....

*wink*

I've learned at least good thing today, and that is to have a break for a while along my journey towards achieving my dream.

My heart whispered to me, pleading me to replenish it immediately this morning. I was uncomfortable, honestly, and i do feel this once in a while, especially when i am all by myself, alone, in my own world...

I strolled down Salisbury road and entered the Darul Isra' mosque (local mosque here in Cardiff). Abu Baraa' gave an astounding khutbah (sermon) about the contributions of Islam & Muslims in the civilisation of mankind.

1001 Inventions: Discover The Muslim Heritage In Our World
National Museum Wales
24th October 2006 - 4th February 2007

The crowd left hillariously noisy as soon as the prayer finished. I took my time communicating with my heart. Honestly friends, you should try this once in a while. All praise be to God, it was quite a relief, and my heart flourished.

I made my way to the Biosciences Building and had a deep academic discussion with a dear friend of mine, Ali Mahdi (he's an Iraqi by origin, 4th yr Medical student, ex-pres Islamic Soc Cardiff Uni '05-'06). I might not want to elaborate on our discussion, as it was a lengthy one. Thanks be to God, the outcome was an amazing one....and friends, do let me know if you're interested to know the issues we discuss. I'm more than happy to sit down & talk about it with you.

Issues, conflicts, problems, responsibilities.....I had all these in my mind almost all the time, and to a certain degree, I agree that these things make me alive, competent, a good challenger in any field in any way. I tend to walk fast whenever & wherever I go, with these things in my mind, in hoping to solve some, if not all, of the problems by the time I reach my destination.

Journey: School - Town - Millennium Stadium - Riverside - Home
I stopped at the bridge by the Millennium Stadium and have a break for a while, hoping to quence my thirst with an isotonic drink. As I was lying to te side of the bridge & drinking, then I realised....
that the birds were chirping,
the ducks were swimming quite happily,
the afternoon breeze was refreshing,
the ....the .... the ....

My beloved friends, of all my entire life striving to achieve my goal, i failed to realise all these things around me.

I'm sorry if I have not contacted you for quite a long time
I'm sorry if I have not return your call or SMS
I'm sorry if I didnt 'bertegur sapa' wherever & whenever I see you (physically or online)
I'm sorry if I dont spend much time 'berborak2' with you
I'm sorry if my face shows a high degree of stress & tense, which might make you uncomfortable with it
I'm sorry if I'm a bit unpleasant to you guys sometimes

I have quite a few responsibilities to be looked over
I have a family who needs my attention back home (tens of thousands of miles away!)
I have my studies to be attended to
I want to improve myself, inwardly & outwardly
and of all these.....I have 24 hours to manage these things in a day.

I'm sorry i might be a bit emotional when writing this post. But honestly friends, I'm awfully sorry, & I hope that you understand.
To my friends, thank you for being understanding,
To my 'abang-abang & akak-akak', thank you for being a great mentor & supportive since I came here in the UK,
To my family, do not worry Mama & Papa, I'm ok, inshaAllah I'll be a good son to both of you,
To my 'enemies'(if there is....if there's none, that's even better!!), thanks for the challenge you gave....coz honestly, I love it! They just make me stronger & stronger everyday

To everyone....thank you. I love you for who you are, and I appreciate everything that you gave.
love for god

wassalam

Selamat!!

All of a sudden i received quite a response from a number of people, asking the address of my blog..

The weird part is that, they did not even ask wether i have a blog or not in the first place

Some even have not chat with me before this!

Hmmm....
Anyway, to those of you whom are the silent admirers of this blog.....whoever n wherever you are...welcome!! you are more than welcome to read, give comments, criticism, throw an argument, or whatever you want! hehe....seriously mate, it's really2 open. however, i would appreciate if you could follow some basic ethical & moral guidelines:
-rather than being an 'anonymous' guy, c'mon, gentlemen la dude.....just tell us who you are.
-usage of inappropriate words in any of the comments will be deleted. i believe that this is really understandable...isnt it?

Alright guys.....in the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful....enjoy reading!

love for god

Salam Aidilfitri

To all the Muslims out there, Eid Mubaarak! Selamat Hari Raya!
Salam Aidilfitri, especially to:
My beloved family members,
My supportive friends,
My colleagues,
(the list goes on & on.....)

I love all of you....but Allah loves you more than anyone else....

May we be stronger today & tomorrow onwards...more challenge to come.

Salam Aidilfitri from Cardiff, Wales, United Kingdom

love for god
takut Allah, kita ikut Nabi

A good (great?!) leader

It has been days now since i last updated this blog. i had actually composed something few days back, but those stacks of paragraphs & lenghty lines were washed away when my computer acquired some problems, unexpectedly....oh well.....sigh

got this from someone....

The Big Difference.. ...

The boss drives his men
The leader inspires them

The boss depends on authority
The leader depend on goodwill

The boss evokes fear
The leader radiates love

The boss says "I"
The leader says "We"

The boss shows who is wrong
The leader shows what is wrong

The boss know knows how it is done
The leader knows how to do it

The boss demands respect
The leader commands respect

So be a leader
Not a boss....

wslm
-love for god-

The study of Earth Sciences

I'll stop talking about my welfare plan for a while, diverting into a topic which i am majoring now.

The knowledge of Earth Sciences is underused globally (Eduardo de Mulder), despite its importance in ensuring the sustainability of the energy, mineral and other resources of this 'Blue Planet'. I came to know that, through scientific studies, the earth is 'created' about 4,650 Million Years Ago, and tonnes of processes occured within these many years.

Isaac Newton once said that "Yes, it is agreed that God created the world in 7 days, but we never know how long God's 1-day is". Hmmmm.....that's interesting! This was one of the reason why Illuminati was formed. Religion vs Science. And the dispute continues until today. Glad that there's no such disputes occuring in the Islamic theology & sciences.

Hamza Yusuf, in one of his academic lectures, said that there are differences between the words "Dunyaa" & "'Alam". Among them, he explained, that 'Dunyaa' is the world which people manifest, and got so in love into it, while ''Alam' is Allah's creation and a sign of Allah's existence. Hence, humans should be awed by the wonders of the 'Alam & get control of themselves towards fame & wealth of Dunyaa.

By studying the pattern of the changes of the world today, we could get a picture on how the earth was many many years ago, and anticipate events that might take place to this earth in years to come. One thing for sure that I really understand, and keeps me 'alive' in all the lectures, is that the world is not stable, and will collapse one day! Bits & pieces are falling over, 1 by 1....

wuuhuuu....thrilling & challenging. More to come!

Welfare work...(part 3)

Went to Darul Isra' just now, and attended the meeting to form the Fund Collection Committee.

Currently, Darul Isra' has the width of 25 x 10 metres squared, which could cater about 400 people (brothers & sisters) at one time. The number of people coming to the mosque, as well as the activities carried out are increasing throughout the year, which is a good thing. Hence, the 'top guns' of the mosque has laid out a plan to make the mosque bigger, which has the capacity of catering about 1000 people at a time, with several rooms for activities - transforming an ordinary mosque to a professional islamic institute for learning & relaxing

3 storeys - ground, 1st floor, and a basement.

Many issues were raised during the meeting, & loads of brilliant ideas given by the people who attended, mostly businessmen. Some of the things that i learnt this day about raising funds are:
-establish a committed team, elect an effective leader to lead
-have a clear target of 'when to start & end', 'target amount of donation collected', 'target area' etc.
-schemes of donation (which makes the contributor easier to donate). eg. breaking down the total cost into (1)smaller portion of shares, (2)the cost for each material needed to buy (3)special package (excellent, gold, silver award) (4)auction (5)charity dinner with the presence of prominent speakers or nasheed groups.....and many more
-preparations of the legalities (paperwork,letters & letterheads, cheque book, stamp)
-promotion (media & communication, presentation, attractive brochures etc)
-dedicated collection team to go here & there.

Pheww....honestly, it's a big task to manage!

Total cost needed for the refurbishment of the mosque = GBP 200,000.

To those who would like to donate, feel free to contact Abu Bara' or Sheikh Ya'qoob.

C'mon, let's start working! InshaAllah, working for Allah is worth living!

Welfare work...(part 2)

Alright....fully geared towards realising this dream of mine.

Attention to those in Cardiff
There'll be a meeting to set up the Funds Collection committee of Darul Isra' in the mosque, tomorrow, Sunday 8th October 2006, after Zuhr prayer (1.30pm). Those who're interested, feel free to come & join.

Bulletin Editorial Team
- still in the process of learning the know-how, as well as scouting for potential teammate.

Islamic Relief
- in the process of establishing brotherhood & network with them. It's going to take some time, but inshaAllah, with on-going effort & with Allah's grace, it is possible. BTW, Islamic Relief has always want someone to volunteer on behalf of them to raise funds locally.

Distribution of food to the needies
- i came to realise that it's a bit challenging to distribute the foods during Ramadhan, because of time factor. however, the project will kick-off next 2 weekends (tentatively 21st Oct)
- once a week (weekends; most probably Saturday night)
- target area: around town
- Food: a can of custard for every soul.
- method: carry some canned custard in a backpack, go around town, give away those stuff to the needies. will also bring a can opener & plastic spoons.

That's all for now. InshaAllah, more to come!

"Life is about giving"

Welfare work...

I was thinking about this many days ago.

Sometimes we just didnt realise that there are other people out there who have not even tasted a delicious, 3-course meal in their entire life. Yet, most of us here always complain on the food that we get, even when it's given to us without any charge! (iftar in the mosque during Ramadhan)

Was thinking of organising several activities
-Sponsoring an orphan programme (islamic relief, human appeal international)
-setting up and editorial group for a monthly bulletin (to be distributed to the people here in Cardiff).
-giving away free food to the needies in town (idea given by Nydd Dydd..thanks)
-forming a nasheed team, might be useful to light up any event organised locally
-learn to raise funds from Islamic Relief.
-joining charity work organised by the local mosque

Planning to lay out a good foundation towards the local community here.
Any suggestions, comments, supports & views are needed badly.

Many thanks.

What's going on in Cardiff?

Well, generally there are 2 main societies in Cardiff & 1 self-proclaim society.

The Malaysian Students Society of Cardiff (MSSCF)
Kelab UMNO Wales

and the other society which claimed to be a society, in which it's actually a one-man show...
Kelab MCA Wales (sorry, no link...sebab tak wujud pun this kelab officially dibawah any portfolio MCA kat Malaysia.

Issues that have always been the case with these 3 clubs every year are:
1. Welcoming new students
2. Money

Alhamdulillah & Istighfar be to Allah, the students community here has given me the trust to take the responsibility as the VP of MSSCF. MSSCF has been, i would say, a better society management-wise as compared to the previous years. Why? because we have many (read: many, not all) dedicated committee members. and thank God, we have successfully organised several events already.

UMNO Wales is not too bad as well. Unfortunately, I, on a personal level, dislike them in certain way. However, that does not mean that i cannot work with them. Many reasons, but i do not wish to discuss it here.....it's self-understood whenever u see that 4-letter word. At times, they can be quite sensible and friendly....well, i guess they are interestingly unpredictable..

MCA Wales? rubbish, and being run by a joker. Enough said.

Also, it seems to me that some of the people involved in these socities do things for their own self-interest. Not much because of the betterment of the community. They lack love & passion for the welfare of the people here.

I still feel that striving for the best for the community through giving, sharing and welfare work is better than doing things for one's self-interest. However, i've heard this statement from a respected person, and i quote "There's no friend, there's no foe, there's just interest!"

phew....

Thinking of establishing a small group dedicated for welfare work. any takers? hehe....

that's all for today..tara~

Rocks? Not too bad at all

I guess these pictures could tell something that i wish to say about my new course...

Glamorgan Heritage Coast, Wales (29/09/2006)

Barry Island, Wales (02/10/2006)

Well, that's about it now....

I'm starting to enjoy the course. hmmm....we'll see what's next....

People say, "big bucks do come in handy these days"
what say you?!

from HUMANS to ROCKS

It has been weeks since i last updated my blog.

Many things happened. Some of it forced me to make the decision of my life.

PETRONAS (sponsor)
family
friends
Malaysian Society here in Cardiff
relatives
this & that.....

God, help me...

Alhamdulillah, i have gained the courage to switch course....
I'm no doctor anymore
I'm gonna be a geologist, God-willing.

Why? simple....i failed my 1st year medical exam

Oh well.....the past is the past...let's focus on 'now' so that i can shape a better future

wallahu'alam

MAWI?!

Why him?!

About 4 hours ago, i was invited by an anonymous YM moderator to an online Islamic-academic circle/halaqa/usrah/whatever you name it. People whom joined the forum came from all around the world, from Japan to the United States. The speaker of the forum was a regular Malaysian-Malay-Muslim preacher, currently residing in Morocco (aka Maghribi), and he discussed a wide range of issues related to the Muslims ummah nowadays.

It is widely understood & accepted by the majority that there should be some ethical & moral concern towards everything we do, & this also applies to the quest of seeking of knowledge. 'Adab' is one of the fundamental teaching in the Islamic & many of the great world traditions. Unfortunately, this morally-behaved act has been neglected by the mass, in which i blame the media for not potraying the importance of it.

Despite being the 'Islamically-learned' people, some of the so-called 'alim' people look down towards those whom have no or very few background knowledge on Islam. We have to bear in mind that everyone has different provisions bestowed by Allah. Different doesn't mean unequal. The 'alim' might be different than the 'commoner', but i would argue that the former is not unequal than the latter. There were many factors contributing to my argument in which i do not wish to explain the its details at this moment.

There are several groups of people whom are really concerned with the foundations in the teaching of Islam. That is absolutely fine, no problem. Unfortunately, having to only care towards those whom are within the circle of the same people WITHOUT taking the concern of the others whom knew nothing or very few about Islam, i think, is not appropriate.

I came about to write this post after getting to know a person whom i may call now as my friend. He comes from a fairly moderate family, currently studying in Form 6 in Muar, Johor. He's a humble, easy-going 19-year-old lad, with an exceptionally great voice! He has similar voice as Mawi's & he's so articulate that he makes a good radio DJ. From the song he sang, i believe that he's an ardent fan of Mawi. He knows most of the songs Mawi sang & even some of the qosidah Mawi chanted (although he himself doesnt even know what qosidah means). Judging from our discussion, i could see that he might not have a good Islamic knowledge by-text, Islamic appreciation by-influence, and Islamic ethics by-surrounding. The reason for me in coming up with these deduction is based from my observation towards how he behaved during the online forum, how he reacted to some questions posed by me & the way he expressed himself publicly in the forum. Indeed, he's the young MAWI!!

I befriended him, and he's such a wonderful guy. And guys, there are simply a lot of people like him out there in our country.
1)Are we satisfied with our own circle of friends, empowering each and every one of us without cosidering the others whom are more in need?
or..
2)Are we committed in empowering ourselves, as well as opening our hearts in accepting and cherish every single soul, regardless of whoever they are.

You decide...

Off to London today.....

I'm going to London in about 2 hours or so by now. Will be discussing my sponsorship with Petronas London, as well as seeking more information of the arrival of new students to Cardiff from the Malaysian Students Department. All do'a & prayers are needed.

Million thanks.

September eleventh...

9/11, it's been 5 years now...

A moment everyone remembers....


Happy 13th Birthday, Aishah!
It's also my younger sister's birthday today. Sorry that i couldn't celebrate it with you and the other family members. May Allah bless you with His Taufiq & Rahmah. Barakallahu Fiikum

My Family (well, only a few of them, the others were walking/running here & there at the airport)
From left: Aishah (younger sis, 5th/7 siblings), Shahreza (abang, 1st/7), Mama, Me (2nd/7), Papa, Tokjah (papa's mother), Na (younger sis 3rd/7), Ridhuan /Adek (7th/7), Uncle Onn (Papa's younger bro)

Challenge...

Salam to all readers...

Things got messed up lately. Subhanallah, praise be to Allah, He has bestowed upon me a great challenge that i've to face....

will be away for a couple of days, resolving my problem.

Memory remains...

BBQing together at Bute Park
Standing from left: Komeng, Rozaime, Azhan, Sahak, Rehsyam
Squatting from left: Aidil, Faruq, Azad, Dini, Naseer, Anep, Aufa
Lying on d ground from left: Wansah, Fahmi, Ahmad

Albeit my always-happy (read: incorrect) life, my heart somehow felt a lil bit sad today.

Sahak (aka = Azhar, or the other way round?!) & Komeng , 2 of my favorite seniors left Cardiff for Malaysia for good.

Sahak...
known for his mulut-becok-ade-je-idea-sampai-orang-lain-pasrah-kalau-nak-cakap (huhu~)
known for his active participation in tabligh activity at the pakistani mosque nearby
known for his terrible, baseless salafi-khalaf argument....yet interesting!

Komeng...
known for his passion in Liverpool (booo......!!huhu~)
the only malaysian who plays in the Cardiff Uni Ice Hockey team....fuh....pawer super...
apa lagi aaa...err err....teeheeee...

all d best to both of you!

Thank you Akhi Ziyad...

Dr Muhammad Ziyad Sheikh Al-Ghannamah came to Cardiff (28 August - 1 September 2006) to visit her daughter whom is doing an attachment in Cardiff University (she recently graduated in Pharmacy from Nottingham University). He is a Syrian by origin, an Algerian by nationality & an O&G specialist by profession. He speaks fluently French & Arabic language, with a very little basic in English language.

I had the opportunity to have him as the first guest of my house. We (me, Rauna & Shidi) tried to be as hospitable as possible. I really enjoyed having him in the house, as if i'm adopting a 2nd father to a personal level. We shared many stories together. We prayed Solah Maghrib & Isha' together. We discussed several issues together. He guides me in sharpening my Arabic language, & taught me some French.

I'm deeply touched with his kindness. Alhamdulillah, thank God, he mentioned that he'll welcome me to Syria & Algeria whenever I feel like going there.

InshaAllah, until we meet again.

Barakallahu fiikum. May Allah's blessings be with you.

A good day to resume my long-awaited tasks...

Fresh..

I woke up quite early lately, thank God. I've made a decision to be the first person to turn up in the Probation Centre (the place I work as a cleaner every morning) before everyone arrives at about 5.30am.

Exams have finished 2 months ago, so do the resits (2 days back). Now i'm back on track.

First and foremost, let's start with some comments on todays news.
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Utusan Malaysia
1. 260 remaja diberi kaunseling dalam operasi khas
- a proactive move by Pertubuhan Kebajikan Darul Islah Selangor (PERKID).
- hopefully this effort will continue for the days, weeks, months & years to come, not just a gimic by some jokers whom tried to make the headline of a newspaper.

2. Pemuda Gerakan pertikai buku teks sejarah
- agreed
- what happened to Ahmad Boestamam, Burhanuddin Helmi, Yap Ah Loy, Gee Hin & Hai San clans, Chin Peng, Ust Abu Bakar Bashir etc. These people also contributed in getting rid of our countries' invaders. Is somebody trying to hide something here...?!

3. PM bentang Bajet 2007 4 petang ini
- don't miss it guys
- PM's speech text is available in this website: http://www.treasury.gov.my
- hehe....let's see if there's any rise in our scholarship! *wink*

4. Hiburan: Once minta maaf
- like we care! ( [-( )

ESPN Soccernet
1. Transfer deadline: No Cole deal confirmation
- waaaaa......Chelsea couldn't snap Ashley Cole...... sheesshhh... Oh well, we have already acquired Khalid Bouhlarouz. I guess we just have to be contented with that. Huh....Jose Mourinho, a man with crazy desires!

2. This season's EPL is going to be a very interesting one!
- Why??!
- Chelsea has built an incredibly strong team with specialist in every department (attacking, flank, midfield, defense, goalkeeping)
- Arsenal is going to strike a deal in getting Julio Baptista into the team! Whoa...
- Argentinian worder boys Tevez & Mascherano are joining West Ham
- Manchester United's former captain Roy Keane will be using his experience to ace Sunderland when he takes control of Sunderland this weekend as it's Manager
- There's a lot to cover here!
*side picture - Tevez & Mascherano

BBC News
1. Semen 'may fuel cervical cancer'
- really??!
- hey medics, this is a must-read!
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Okie dokie, gonna have a tasty breakfast now.
teeheee.......

A summary of Hamza Yusuf's lecture

I just finished hearing an audio lecture presented by a prominent Muslim scholar, Sheikh Hamza Yusuf, seconds ago, and i think it might worth for me to pen down it's summary here as a reminder for me as well as to anyone else.
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Al-Mi'raj ; A night of Advice

Everyday is the day of Allah SWT, and everyone needs to be reminded of the greatness n gracefullness of Allah. Sheikh Hamza Yusuf presented this lecture on the 27th of Rejab, a memorable day where Prophet Muhammad (peace & blessings be upon him) was transcended from this world to meet The Creator. He further explained the story in which i will not go into it as i assumes that the readers have at least a brief knowledge of the event.

These are some of the advices that he mentioned in the lecture:

• Don't do something only for the sake of satisfaction. Do it with an intention and purpose to strengthen ourselves. Eg. read stories, watch movies, travelling etc.
• Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) is the most beautiful in speech.
• If you don't benefit anything (in any sort of way) in something, leave it.
• The self flees from moderation in everything. It loves extremism, in guidance, love, intimacy, excellence, success, satisfaction. Most people never talk about it (not aware of it).
• Islam is about moderation in all these things. Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) did loads of things with his family, wives, companions, children, people of Makkah & Madinah, trade, war, etc (showing that he was invloved in various physical state), but his absolute state was the consciousness of Allah SWT. He's the best example one could follow.
• Seek a friend in his path to help you. Treat him with his state, not yours, coz people are different in states.
• Friendship is a hard thing. A friend is the one who goes through thick & thin with you. Brotherhood is different than friends, they even go to the extent in harming themselves to benefit you.
• Be concerned with people in a group. They behave in one way individually and could be different collectively. Some people dont like to be pushed around (eg. People of Fallujah). Bangladeshis are nice, harmless people, which is a good thing! But others took advantage from their kindness. (this really rings a bell of my own racial community!)
• Concern yourself with time, do anything with temperance. A really strong man will ended up as a weak person. Work in this world as you live forever, work in the next-world like you're gonna die tomorrow.
• Beware in the position of leadership. It is a service, and a leader is the servant of it's people. Dont make people as your servant.
• Use our time wisely, organise it.
• Dont be a fanatic, in truth or false. Al-Haq is something relative, what might be right to a person might be wrong to another person.
  
• Dont claim what you deserve. Dont expect anything from this world. Whoever claims a rank greater than he deserve, it will be taken away. Whoever claims a rank lower than he deserves, he will be uplifted in an unexpectable rank. Eg. Imam Ali - "i'm just a Muslim" .
• Dont give, from the companion you sit with, something outside of his state. If you give something lower than his state, he'll not be contented. If you give more, they couldnt take it and will leave you.....(Oo friends who claim themselves as Da'ie, this is true wisdom!)
• Never expect anyone in this world to understand your state, coz everyone can only understand based on their frame of reference. But when there is a similarity in people's outlook & aspiration, they can work together. People tend to flock with others who are similar to them. Birds of a feather flock together!
• Do not belittle the things we've said coz it can harm us!
• Guard our secret. The heart of the one whom we tell our secret is not a safe place. Imam Ali reminded us that those who tells someone a secret, and gets mad when that person tell another person, is a fool, coz the state of the heart of the latter is as the same as the former.
• Dont leave something which we are devoted. Be committed to mastery in whatever we do. Perfecting it is a craft & art.
  
• Dont believe in your ego, dont obey it, event for a single moment. Beware of the decision we made. 'Azm is the final state of intention.
  
• Dont waste our time in anything we dont need to do.
• Treat others as like how we like to be treated.
• Guard our tongue, dont mention others false. Others have false, but they have eyes too! And they could see our false...
• Live well with people, dont aggress anyone.
• Have taqwa in Allah wherever we are, treat others in the best of ways.
• Always seek the most beautiful in dignity.

Last but not least.....our ummah is here to stay!
Indeed, his words are full of wisdoms, and his teachings come from his teachers, descended directly, in a chain of knowledge descendence, from our beloved Prophet Muhammad (pbuh).

May Allah gives His mercy to all of us....ameen

Pelihara permuafakatan - Amanat PM sempena Hari Kemerdekaan ke-49

KUALA LUMPUR 30 Ogos – Perdana Menteri, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi mengajak masyarakat majmuk Malaysia memelihara semangat permuafakatan dan kerjasama yang menjadi tonggak kekuatan negara sejak awal kemerdekaan.

Katanya, pembangunan negara yang dinikmati sekarang adalah hasil daripada perpaduan yang terjalin antara rakyat pelbagai kaum dan agama selama ini.

‘‘Perpaduan rakyat Malaysia menjadi kekuatan kepada kita, pastikanlah, kekuatan itu (terus) menjadi milik kita pada hari ini. Muafakat yang elok, kerjasama kukuh dan berkesan, ini adalah amat perlu,’’ katanya dalam perutusan khas yang disiarkan menerusi radio dan televisyen sempena sambutan Hari Kemerdekaan Ke-49, di sini malam ini.

Perdana Menteri berkata, dalam memupuk dan memelihara perpaduan, setiap rakyat Malaysia harus bersifat sabar, bertimbang rasa, mengutamakan kerjasama serta saling menghormati antara satu sama lain.

Merujuk kepada insiden 13 Mei 1969, Abdullah mengingatkan warga Malaysia agar mengambil iktibar daripada titik hitam dalam sejarah negara itu dan mengelak daripada melakukan sesuatu yang boleh menggugat perpaduan dan kerjasama antara kaum.

Abdullah berkata, rakyat harus mengelak melakukan apa jua perbuatan yang merosakkan permuafakatan kerana ia akan menghakis dan menghilangkan kekuatan negara.

“Apa yang membuat kesusahan kepada kita, kita perlu elakkan, itulah maknanya kita belajar daripada sejarah, di samping itu, kita juga perlu mengukir sejarah kita, mengukir sejarah membina tamadun di masa hadapan,’’ ujar beliau.

Abdullah menambah generasi sekarang, yang menikmati warisan perjuangan generasi dahulu, bertanggungjawab untuk menjadikan Malaysia sebuah negara lebih maju dan berjaya, untuk diwariskan kepada generasi akan datang.

“Ataupun sekurang-kurangnya sebagai sebuah negara yang mempunyai kerajaan yang ada rancangan yang tersusun dan diatur dengan baik... supaya negara kita akan dapat meningkat maju,’’ katanya.

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Overall, i see this as a good speech, but lacks clarity. His speech lacks the power that could drive listeners to become better followers. Unlike Tun 'appa namaa, appa namaa', he's more of a "takpalaaa, dia nak buat dia buat lah....".

Few days back he commented on an issue regarding the international corruption index, in which the world witnessed Malaysia ranked 39th of all. Malaysia??! Corruption??! Islamic state??! Muslim-majority country??! What's happening here?!

Few weeks back, he told the press that any interference of other religious activities into the Melayu-Muslim activites and territories should be stopped. People might think differently, but i personally think that this is just another quick-fix, short-sighted solution for the problem

aiyaa...... Malaysia Malaysia ku....

Selamat menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan ke-49!

1st Post.....

A great day to start a new blog

Why?!
Concerned people chose to articulate their thoughts. Great majority (i'm assuming) chose to express their feelings. Me? might be a mixture of both.

Topics? Issues?
Simply, there are a great number of blogs concerned with politics, sports, religious issues, entertainment, gossips, crap&junk etc. Mine, also, might be a blend of all these ingredients with a little pinch of self-made spices!

In the name of God, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.....here goes